Sunday, 29 March 2009
Derrick, you are in pain.
Everything that you ever loved is gone. You have no one left out there and you feel so alone and so lonely. You sit alone wishing that your time would come to put you out of your misery...
- 02:20;
Thursday, 26 March 2009
Missing something called love and care. Hmm went training then driving lesson. First time the car was missing. With the instructor. then the in charge sub another instructor for me. HA! Its time to learn to enjoy life to the max.=)
- 22:21;
Sunday, 22 March 2009
Tired of everything around me. Just hope to sail out of all the troubles. just you and me. i think of you at times. but i given up on you more times. Nothing was true. So tired of this place. i need a new life.='(
- 23:14;
Saturday, 21 March 2009
its empty. all that i wanted, is what you couldn't give. aimless. i want to watch movie, had an expensive meal. buy things. pamper myself. Im FEELING TOTALLY lost, so much problems that i wish i could just hide forever.
- 03:09;
Friday, 20 March 2009
We tried we played and we strived hard. We didnt win. But to me, the team spirit we had is much better then winning. Hmm bowl kind of better today. but i know its totally luck. im not ready to bowl. because of luck im in masters. However im going to strive hard tomorrow!. Jia you!=)
- 03:00;
Thursday, 19 March 2009
Since long bowl that bad. just can concentrate. the foul line=( today tragic 170 average. total 180 average after 2 days. I want to score tomorrow not because of myself, because i want the team to win. i dont care how i bowl. friends/ teamates are much important. Good luck Team SP! 900 series per game total= 3600 pinfals
- 02:45;
Wednesday, 18 March 2009
NAG oiling was easy, area big. yet i wasnt able to take advantage of it to score. having a problem with the approach, hit foul line 5/6 times. really killed my connections. first i didnt dare to slide, second accuracy needless to say, and third wasnt enjoying the game. just hope sliding will be solve by today. really please. i need to up my 187 average tomorrow. may be blessed pleased! hai. was totally demoralised and sad. really feeling very uneasy now.
- 03:25;
Monday, 16 March 2009
Had been busy pass few days. went for first aid course. can say is quite a sure pass course but yea i still learned how to save people okay, like CPR! haha cool right. National Age Group is just tomorrow. Im not prepared, still trying to recover from left knee injury. But i still will try my best. No pain no gain.
I tried this quiz, not really that true. the part on good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. HAHA!
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx
Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.
The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Your views on education:
Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.
The right job for you:
You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
Who is your true self:
You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust.
- 03:19;
Wednesday, 11 March 2009
我不明白，真的不明白。lifes changing, problems arising. Even the trusted, turns out not. Even perfect, sometimes failed. sometimes understood, but forgotten at times. finding out the truth, leds to more horror. put my mind and heart at peace, yet troubled. Just need 1 whom i can trust, who cares.
- 19:16;
Sunday, 8 March 2009
My com crashed! my songs all gone, documents, etc. those people who i have not link, the blog address are all gone too!. please tell me your blog address again prople. thanks. AND! omg jerene, i lost all the songs you send me. SORRY! hai! sad sad. my com now is so so so so empty! how, someone please help. lol NAG coming, just started to train up for nag. hopefully its will turn out good. 17~20 march! Last year NAG was the worst out of all the competitions i joined. only NAG i didnt qualify for masters.Others all i did!
- 03:37;
Wednesday, 4 March 2009
Hmm im feeling scared, afraid and worried. I dont know why i still cant let go. I hate this feeling. It leads to no where. I cant fill in another person. i feeling lonely feeling very pressured. But i dont know what to do. Im SO LOST. When will things get better? haiz. why am i in this mess? i hope i could just hide from all this problems. being drank might be best.....
Loving someone too much is a kind of harm.
- 01:54;
Monday, 2 March 2009
Hmm went JP yesterday, saw yi ting tere. lol. o ya cheer up for your studies! accompanied jeremy buy his itp business wear. then went safra mount faber meet up with lynal all. went supper and suppose to go home as i got dental this morning. but ended up they kept force me to stay at dalbert home till this morning. we went east coast for breakfast too. then i went for dental. Didnt know why i was feeling so dam cold all the way. Maybe just not feeling well or too tired i guess. took a cab home instead. My bills! hai im still short of $$ im so so so dead. hai. OKAY! im off to bed really really very tired.=(
- 10:38;
Sunday, 1 March 2009
Had a terrible head ache the whole day. panadol and bed were the needs for today. couldnt go out couldnt rest well couldnt even sleep. Im having this head ache problem for quite few days already. but today was the worst. I cant take it anymore! headache please leave me alone! shall drink lesser alcohol i hope. The worst is i have no encouragement. i need someone here.='(
- 01:15;
