Life of no regrets

Saturday, 28 February 2009

The first ever outing till almost 4 plus am with 10 bowlers. hmm went fish and co. Celebrated louis and dalbert birthdays. after that we went to marina barrage to chill. We drank beer and played poker. HAHA. hmm have not been going to zouk for a long long time already. Anyone? i can bring 1 person in for free. Lets party=)

Lamborghini - 15:16;

Friday, 27 February 2009

hmm sometimes i question myself if im still expecting for her to change. Sometimes i pity her, sometimes i care for her, sometimes i hate her, sometimes i just want to tell her off stop hiding things, sometimes i want to tell her i still love her. I cant figure out what am i thinking, what i want now. I dont know if this is so because i still love her that much. Or its just memorise that i cant let go. Or is it that i just want an accompany. Im not feeling any good i realised. I just what to enjoy what others can, what others have, and what others are doing. Yet, here i am struggling to find a new live, a new way of living on. Because i know she will never be able to change.

Lamborghini - 03:33;

Thursday, 26 February 2009

Could not sleep well, slept at 7 woke up at 2. Had a bad hang over. head spinning now. hmm went a thai pub yesterday night. Opened two bottles of chivas. Jeremy seems enjoying himself with the thai girl! haha.. KP and me were not really into this type i guess? i spent quite some time outside actually. lol meng yik was the very high., should be the most high person amoung us already lol. I didnt really get high and didnt really enjoy it. they are going on friday night again, Hmm still deciding if i should go.=(

Lamborghini - 14:14;

Tuesday, 24 February 2009

Just back from driving, 1st time out at road. Rather easier then circuit. At least engine didnt stall. working hard on moving off faster. Hmm listen to my mp3 while going to BBDC an came across this song. so alike to what i feel like saying now.=)

我以為

作詞：黃婷　
作曲：品冠　
編曲：伍冠諺

妳曾說不想有天讓我知道　妳對他　有那麼好

妳說會懂　我的失落　不是靠寬容　就能夠解脫

我以為我出現的時候剛好　妳和他　正說要分開

我以為妳　己對他不再期待　不縱容他　再給妳傷害

我以為我的溫柔　能給妳整個宇宙　我以為我能全力　填滿妳感情的缺口

專心陪在妳左右　他彌補一切的錯　也許我太過天真　以為奇蹟會發生

他讓妳紅了眼眶　妳卻還笑著原諒

原來妳早就想好妳要留在誰的身旁

我以為我夠堅強　卻一天天的失望(卻輸得那麼絕望)

少給我一點希望　希望就不是奢望

我以為終究妳會慢慢明白　他的心　已不在妳身上

我的關心　妳依然無動於衷　我的以為　只是我以為

Lamborghini - 20:36;

Monday, 23 February 2009

Just back home..LOL went out with KP, Jeremy and Meng Yik. Went to play lan. Played L4D. LOL! had much fun again. then we went to diary farm there to eat kaya toast. set there chat for a while. We saw this Mecs! Dam nice dam cool. we were guessing who drove it. Yet till we left, no one drove it away. haha. Once again Good luck to those taking exams tomorrow.

Lamborghini - 02:39;

Sunday, 22 February 2009

HMm went out yesterday night. watched Pink Panther. With Jeremy, Yuan Chao, Jin min, Yan Jing and Yan Ru. haha. quite sudden actually. but fun out with friend again! Movie, supper and chat till almost 4am!. HAHA! they talked alot of emo stuff. i got a little into that emo mood. thought of her again, but i know things are diff. I shouldnt think of her anymore. I must and have to let go. Derrick will be strong.=) And study hard to her. Jia you for exams. dont give up.=) And to this person who tag as =). jia you too! all the best for exams!.

Lamborghini - 21:52;

Saturday, 21 February 2009

i have lost a good friend, the girl i loved most, recently. Now am i going to lose one more good friend of mine? i know how you feel. the feeling of being stuck, helpless. and more, you didnt do anything to harm them. But running away from this problem doesnt help. If you are brave enough, stand up and deal with it. Im always there to give you my support. i believe they all misunderstood the situation. Stand up for your rights. actually there are really alot of ways you can clear things out. many solutions. it is whether you want to or not. Trust me, everyone have feelings. and feelings can change. My advice to this good friend of mine, is to share it with her "him" and come up with a solution. If not you that group of friends. Its not convient for me to say anything, later might end up more complicated. and more misunderstanding. Lastly, cheer up always. its never too late to do anything, as long as theres the will to. Hope things for you would be settled soon. take care always=)

Lamborghini - 03:57;

Friday, 20 February 2009

Was quite fun. but starting a little scare scare but in the end chiong liao. haha! car died twice. once when i release the clutch too much i guess and second is the sudden brake of car infront. i forgot the clutch, too sudden to rmb it. So i just braked. lol and died. haha other then that fun. Just that my moving on a little slower. need improve on it. yea. is happy on his progress.=)

Lamborghini - 23:59;

Thursday, 19 February 2009

Had the most wonderful dream ever. I dream of someone. So unbelievable. So sweet, so there for me. HAHA! a little crappy but i was just so true. what ever sweet things i ever did, this person did it to me. haha although just a dream, its still worth remembering. it can never happen i know for this persons attitude to me, but at least in dream i saw it. thanks god. Hmm not forgeting a persons birthday today. HAPPY BIRTHDAY to HER.
OMG i need to work! first time so broke. my bank= $20 plus. my wallet= $10. Parents oversea. for once, im really dead. Card bills, still owe few hundred. i guess i overspent this time. hai. too late. Gonna get some income. work! ayone have jobs to intro please tell me. i need it.
Derrick wants to enjoy life and meet alot of friends from now on.
Because of love two gets together, yet because of love two may part.

Lamborghini - 18:26;

Wednesday, 18 February 2009

Passed FTT this morning. Glad that is one step nearer to TP and finally driving.=). TP on 28/4. if everything goes well one time, then ill take 5 months and 8 days from the day i register to getting driving licence.=) haha. and hope nothing goes wrong during practical lesson too=) Hmm going to bowl leauge tonight. and meet up with team mates. =) Derrick is so glad that he is moving on, and determinded not to fall back anymore. Jia you!

Lamborghini - 14:55;

Tuesday, 17 February 2009

i started to pay attention to everyone beside me. friends that accompanied me, team mates that motivated. lifes getting better although without her. But i guess im more relax, carefree, feeling so much happier. and hope things will get better.=) Didnt do much things today, played with Donut. He still bites, and scratch. He thinks its fun. it hurts! haha but he only does it to my family. ha. hmm wonder when will next class outing be? ha.. tomorrow is wednesday! ladies night, anyone? haha!

Lamborghini - 21:26;

Monday, 16 February 2009

Before i blog would like to say to a girl : Study hard for exams, hope your knees have recovered. i did get you birthday present but now, i dont think there is any need to pass it to you. Happy Birthday in advance. There wont be trust between us anymore. You lied, and even covering it up. This is how you face up with problems. You run, if not you find excuses to cover up all your wrongs. I loved you once, but not anymore. You played, you enjoyed. I fall in love deeply and fell hard. Im still recovering from all the lies and crap. I wont blame on it anymore. You take care from now on. I realised its not possible to try to change someone, hoping one day the person change for you. It is a fresh start for me now. Deleted the physical her, yet feelings are still there. A heavy price i paid for the mistake i made. I will be happy, so will you.

And JERENE, Cheer up alright. your just freaking stress up. Dont scare yourself. take it easy, just do your best. JIA YOU. you have my support.

Woke up quite late for school.
Went jurong port for visit. its my first time in there. kind of a wonderful experience. the fun part was with friends=) but sad thing is we cant get out of the bus, under ISPS code(port security).
After the trip went town to play L4D with classmates. and we had dinner at Aston.=) This was our first time our group went out for dinner and play together. in fact first outing. You guys are cool man! gonna miss willis in class. although i hope we could have helped him, he still have to forward his module. i hope its just one. may god bless him.

Below are some picure of the port taken inside the bus.
=)

left picutre is the exit gate for prime movers, the truck that carries container, all the camera there record the detail of container and prime mover for records of containers moving out.
Other 2 picutre shows ship, should be bulk carriers, at berth.

left picutre shows container of UASC, a major customer of jurong port.

right picutre shows an empty berth.

Cement imports are done at jurong port. Only port for import of processed cement and suger.
The Cement imported is stored at the 4 towers you see at the back. There were 6 of this towers for storage, all of different companies. All cement carries you see on the road have to load cement at this port.

Key gantry cranes : Used to unload containers from ship. can reach up to 14 containers of length when in operation. It operates 24 hours. each worker will stay up on top of it at the driver seat for 8 hours.

Rubber tyred gantry cranes (RTG): Use to stack containers up. Can stack up to 6 container high. PSA RTG can stack up to 7 high.

Lamborghini - 23:55;

HMM. someone was complaining my blogs dead. so here i am. anyway, is not that i have nothing to blog, just sometimes i just dont know if i should publicise it or. anyway hoping all a belated happy val days. was in a very bad mood since last monday. not sure if it was due to exams. And i realised i blamed it on someone. this person was (use to be) my motivator. Studying together was great joy. however, this exams, was there for me at all. It was all lies. yet denining. everytime you were wrong, you lie once. thinking to push the blame to everyone else. im tired in give my trust to you anymore. just take care. Went bowling most of the time after exams, although injury on knee. Went swensens for dinner with parents. Then home to play with Donut( my new family member: a baby retriver). A very cute one, but is very irritating cause its very very playful. Just now at msn someone pissed me of. To that person, im sorry for over reacting. but you know why already so smile. and DONT blame yourself. You just meant it as a joke right so its okay.=) you keep blame yourself, i wont feel any good too. And Thanks for motivating me during my exams. and cheer me up when im sad. your exams is coming soon, jia you okay? do share your sadness with me too. thanks=) Lastly to all students taking exams soon, all the best and study hard!...=)

Lamborghini - 03:10;

Monday, 9 February 2009

Exams this week. tomorrow is econs. yet has been thinking of something else. Has been long seen i felt you close. the feeling seems far lost. even words from you now seemed empty. I got nothing encouraging from you. How am i suppose to hold on? where love seems so far away. Sad and unappreciated.

Lamborghini - 20:27;