Tuesday, 20 January 2009
Too many things are happening. wasnt in any mood of joy/celebration. Things just hit till the limit. If it didnt break through it, it fall back the the very beginning. i kept telling myself, i was wrong, it was my fault. Give in and tried to trust. I dont ask for anything, all i needed was the trust between us. Guy A appeared, you told me im too much. now, B and C. and who knows what you kept from me. I admit, sometimes being that unreasonable. have you wondered why? you said i concern too much on the return, how about you? have you given in without complains? Currently you blame me for all the problems we have. Was it that i didnt try to understand you? or was it that you didnt tell me anything? After all the problems, you brought in people who you felt are so much better. And now you said i assume things that werent true. Before you do anything had you even ask yourself how you would feel if you were that person? Its not a time to argue anything, different people thinks different, its just weather you get the picture behind it. Since to you im not worth, im just keeping silent. I know you have many things and werent in any good mood. Whats is the point of quarreling? since i tried, since things seems to be ugly to you. Ill just stay oneside. as long as i see that you are happy with no matter who or what. If we could get close again, all i need now is that special trust that we both can give each other. And please i am not trying to blame you on anything, i just hope you understand how i feel.
Warning letters on attendance. Exams arriving soon. New year just few days later. I still dont know what i want to do. doing pointless things everyday. Wheres the colour in life?
However, im not as bored as i were last time. This little new member of the family, kept me entertained. This little dog, cute and lovely. Likes to irritate me. but its so cute that i even played with it. lol! Force it to learn to jump, learn to bark. etc. Just so cute and innocent. I just love this new member. He definately cheers me up eveyday. Have stop bowling, only on mondays when training is on. Seem no motivation yet. but its coming soon.. haha!
- 18:18;
