Lynal, quite retard actually lol!

My life might seems to be happening, but there something missing. Something that i need and it isnt there. Im still trying my best to let go. Memories still flooding through my mind. Those memories were so real like its was reality still. They were so wonderful to me. Actually looking back i had Wonderful times with her around, wonderful times we spent out together. We joke, laugh at other people, studied together..... So many happiness. But there were frequent downs which we overcomed. Now this problem is what we could not overcome, we gave in. So all things changed. But im still glad i had those memories to keep my company when im lonely. Now its different, she might have other him to encourage her, joke with her, laugh with her. Hmm.. And I hope she could do her paper tomorrow with confidences. Its hurt to see her so sad over those papers that she done. I wish i could help, but theres noting i can do. Ive got no say to her anymore, she has got others to be beside her i guess. That guy will cheer her up i guess. But still may she be blessed to do well. I dont want her to be sad. It hurts me. I know i have to learn to let go sometimes. Its isnt easy as said. I still love her like how i do from the start. But im trying not to think about it. everything seems to have link to her. My life is so screwed up. But im learning to handle all this, its part or growing. I'll get over it soon.. All the best for her exams, i prayed.