Saturday, 20 December 2008
Was watching Tv just. about some love relationship. it made me recall so much about my pass. I teared. sometimes i feel that i shouldnt be a guy. i feel i am more to a girl, teared so easily. since young till now. Im really feeling very empty. theres no one i can talk to. i wont flirt anymore. didnt talk to alot people today. trying to keep to my own promise, that i wont flirt anymore. But im very troubled, theres no one there. Im really feeling empty for this time. im really left with no one. i have so much to say. but its all bottled up in me. would a girl love me like i was the only guy she wanted in earth? Is there true love? im so empty, i dont know how. for so many years, i have failed in love. I just hope for a girl that will hold me, and lead me on. now i felt i have fallen, so deep that i cant get out on my own. Why is that so? i just need the special one girl. I tried so hard. but fail so many times. Love isnt true to me. this might just be my life. as lonely as i am. Empty night.
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